my Secret god

I lived on nectar,
I sucked ambrosia,
Savoring the sweetest
from the deity;
filled with frenzy
I lit up the smoking altars
as I did dance before the
other gods, but my Secret god,
he is a blushing jealous god
who tracked my unknown star
and I, disguised by Heaven
refused his kisses, which he has
avenged with helpless wrath;

blinding every envious human
waging war on him, and I
looking down from across Paradise
how I despise his Heaven, his
challenges and the sky mean
nothing at all to me, nothing if
at the expense of your beauty